There were moments when I first became a mom that I doubted myself.
I thought that I was doing everything wrong.
During the middle of the night feedings, and the lack of sleep I resented him.
How could I resent this perfect little child?
It was supposed to be perfect right?
Like the movies?
I cried beside him while he cried.
My colicky baby was not what I had bargained for.
It was not easy.
It was hard.
I was doing it alone.
I remember one night in particular. I brought Aidyn up to my mom. I told her to take him. I told her I couldn't do it anymore.
I felt like a huge fat failure.
I felt like the only person in the entire world that felt this way.
Everyone else seemed to be pulling it off.
Why couldn't I?
It is days like that in which I wish I could go back in time and watch this video:
I receive a lot of sweet comments from all of you raving about what a good mom I am.
I want you to know that sometimes I am NOT a good mom.
I have to say sorry, A LOT.
Sometimes I have NO idea what I am doing.
Motherhood is not perfect.
Those of you who are mothers know this.
Those that are about to be mothers, SHOULD know this.
Those that are thinking about becoming mothers LISTEN to this.
You will NOT be a perfect mother.
But you will try.
Thats all that matters!
The "true love" we, mothers, talk about is the fact that your child will love you no matter what! Even if you screw up! Even if you buy the wrong cereal. Even if you tell them no. Even if you cuss when you step on a Monopoly piece while going down the stairs with a basket of laundry!
They STILL love you!
Thats the best advice I can give.