My little Diva

My son is very special.

He isn't like other boys.

Well he does like some things that other boys like.

He likes to get dirty.

He likes to catch bugs.

He likes to wrestle.

He likes hunting.

but..

He also loves his care bears.

He loves to sing.

He loves to dance.

He likes to play "daddy".

He LOVES Taylor Swift.

He would LOVE to be in a pageant!

and Yes, he did tell his stylist today that his favorite colors are pink and yellow.

And yes, he pops his hip when he gets his picture taken.

and Yes, he will refuse to wear a pair of jeans because they don't look good...

or he'll change his clothes five times until he looks "cute".

And Yes, today he did pick out a Barbie coloring book.

But you want to know what?

I love him just the way he is.

I'm not going to put him in a box.

I am not going to stunt his creativity.

I'm not going to "label" him.

I'm going to allow him to like what he wants.

I'm not going to convince him to like "blue".

I'm not going to force him to buy the power rangers coloring book.

I'm not going to make him play with GI Joe's.

He is an amazing little boy, and I am so proud of everything about him.

I think he is the amazing little boy that he is, because no one forces him to be something he isn't!

So to my son.. "Aidyn, you do your thing little man! You pop that hip, you flash that smile, and you just keep being the fabulous diva, I know you are!"

Dear BD

Dear Tony,

How all "this" came to be shocks me.

Sometimes I feel like I need to pinch myself.

I musts be dreaming.

Except this is better then any dream or hope I could ever have made up in my mind.

This isn't anything like the first time.

It is 110% better.

Sometimes when you look at me..

I get these amazing little butterflies.

My stomach does flip flops, and my smile can't seem to fit on my face.

Then there is the way that you wrap your arms around me when I'm standing at the sink.

The same way I'd seen in old fashioned movies.

You nuzzle your head ever so close to my ear.

You whisper something sweet, and kiss me softly, until I giggle and tip my head to meet yours.

In those moments, I couldn't imagine being anywhere else.

Have I mentioned that I find you VERY amusing.

You are quirky, and silly, and funny.

I love that we "get" each other,

and that we both laugh with each other..

and maybe at times, at each other EVERY DAY!

Then of course there is the "daddy" part of you..

Sometimes when I watch you and Aidyn, I feel like the luckiest Mom in the world.

I love when you wrestle with him.

I love when he sits at your side, his little legs curled up beside him, and his head leaning against you.

The way your arms seems to fit perfectly around him, amazes me, since it seems to fit perfectly around me too!

You are pretty amazing in that way.

Then there is the funny voices you use when you tell him stories.

I think I find them more funny then Aidyn does.

Most importantly I love that I can count on you.

You are beyond hardworking, and you help to take care of us in every aspect.

You are the kind of man that I have waited for.

I waited four years for you…

and even though I'm glad I didn't have to…

I would have waited for ever.

You are my soul mate.

You are my best friend.

Thank you for everything you do.

Thank you for being my family!

I love you baby,

Brittany

Aidyn update

You're looking at one of the newest pre-schoolers in town!

A full blown smartie pants!

Who draws and paints the coolest pictures!

Who can write his own name!

Can spell tons of words, most recently, the word IOWA!

Who loves to dance, pose, sing, and be a total diva!

Who loves to jump on the trampoline, and do karate moves!

Who loves to spend time with his daddy! (esp. when they are wrestling or playing tag!)

Who gives the best kisses in the world, and who is still a complete mama's boy!

Who is still the best little boy around!

Aidyn is doing FANTASTIC!

I was worried about how the move would affect him, but it doesn't even seem to phase him!

He is so resilient!

and brave..

He does miss everyone in Minnesota, but it doesn't seem to be hindering him in any way!

He is just all around a good kid.

Keep in mind that he is still four.. so some days.....

but for the most part, we have no problems, and we really just enjoy our life together!

He is VERY excited about BD and I being together!

He is positive that we will get married, and is already planning on being the ring bearer!

Lets just say I am one lucky mama!

I have one amazing kid, who just keeps getting better with time!

*by the way.. he says HELLO! :)

Relationship updates..

The real news you want to be updated on.. right?

Well obviously you know that BD and I are back together.

***EEEK***

Things are AMAZING you guys!

It feels so right..

It was a long time coming, but I always knew in my heart that the two of us would be together..

but sometimes it was really really hard to hold out hope.

The thing is, that everything is in Gods timing.

I know that my heart wasn't prepared until now.

I know that I hadn't truly found out who I was until now..

(and maybe I still don't know..)

but I grew.

I grew up, and became a women.

I became a mother.

I took care of myself.

Loved myself.

And guess what..?

When I did that, BD started loving me too!

He realized how strong I was.

He realized how beautiful I was.

He fell in love with me as a mother..

as a women...

and as a friend.

We started talking.

LOTS of talking.

We shared our dreams..

our goals..

our passions..

and realized slowly, that we were on the same path.

That we were assets to each other.

It started slowly..

I worked with him outside...

I helped him clean..

He helped me..

Slowly through these physical acts of kindness, and hard work..

we fell in love again.

Were still falling in love.

It would be a lie if I told you everything was perfect.

We still have the past four years to work through.

We've both said and done very horrible things to each other..

but we have chosen to forgive each other.

I can say without a doubt that I hold no anger or animosity towards him.

I let it go..

and so did he!

There is NO way we could have a fresh start without it!

Forgiveness is a beautiful and refreshing thing.

The difference this go around, is that we have chosen to handle things differently.

We talk, not yell.

We listen.

We take space.

BD and I have chosen to live separately this go around.

I don't know for how long (at least a year..).

We still spend several nights together a week, but it is nice to have some time apart.

At first we didn't want to do that..

but we both realize that its beneficial in the long run.

I can honestly say I have more fun with this man then ever before!

He makes me smile.

He makes me laugh!

He gives amazing back rubs...

The BEST kisses...

and he is one rocking daddy!

If you have followed my blog the last four years, then you know just how far this journey has come!

This was my dream..

and I'm living it…

and i've never been happier!

Thanks for being a part of this journey!

So many of you have encouraged me over the last couple years, and I am so very grateful for that!

So now in this moment of happiness, I hope you're rejoice with me as well!

I am so incredibly excited to see just where this goes!

I hope you'll all stick with me, to find out as well! ;)

*Insert happy sigh, and smile here!

The Move

I got the job offer in Iowa and two weeks later I was on my way to my new home.

It happened incredibly fast.

A flurry of goodbyes, and packing.

I tried to enjoy it, but for the most part my heart was already in Iowa.

Although BD and I were keeping it "hush-hush" for the time being, we were already "together".

I had waited four years to be with him, and I was so ready to start my life.

He was so helpful during that time.

Always answering my questions, taking all my phone calls, and calming me down when I'd go into a panic.

I bought some new things for my home, and packed everything I owned.

It was real.

It was here.

The day before the move, BD and I had plans to meet a half hour from my home, to pick up a couch and bunk bed set.

BD had a four hour drive, and so when he got close enough, I headed with my Mom, niece, and nephew towards them.

The clouds were dark, and soon hail started flying at the van.

We pulled over at least a half a dozen times.

By the time we made it to the mall, it was a full blown storm.

The sky was so green it almost looked teal.

Moments later while I was filling my cart at Target I got a call from BD saying they had made it.

The sirens were going of, and he told me to come meet him.

I left my entire cart (Amazing.. I know..) and headed towards them.

The malls doors weren't locked, but the security guards were strongly advising people to stay in the mall.

BD found the safest structural wall (he's smart like that) and gave me directions to find him.

As I walked towards him and Aidyn, even in the midst of all that craziness, I knew I was walking towards my home.

After an hour and a half, and a few subway sandwiches later, we were packing up the furniture and heading to get the rest of the stuff.

The next morning we packed almost all I had in an enclosed trailer, and the back of BD's parents massive van.

Then we were off (minus Aidyn who stayed home to spend time with my family).

I had never even seen my new house!

NEVER!

Not even a picture!

BD had found it, and although there were almost a dozen other people interested, I got it!

It didn't hurt that BD was able to put the deposit and the first couple months rent down in cash!

The whole way to Iowa, I bombarded BD with questions...

What color are the walls?

How big is the kitchen?

Is it clean?

Is there a bath tub!

He tried the best he could with his "male" mind.. to remember ever little detail.

I could tell he was nervous about whether I'd like it, but he tried to pretend he wasnt.

When we pulled up, I was bouncing off the seats.

It was small.

With a front porch that needed some paint...

but it was PERFECT!

The landlord was there, and we started talking about signing the lease..

Then halfway through he realized I'd never even been inside the house.

He walked me through and I fell in LOVE!

The kitchen has sunny yellow walls, with adorable curtains.

The dinning room and living room, are a perfect gray with beautiful white molding!

Arched entries!

A built in nook that is PERFECT for my camera display!

Two bedrooms, the perfect size!

Plenty of closet space!

A basement WITH a WASHER and DRYER!

A back yard!

and A clothes line!

I dont know what it was about the clothes line, that made me feel at home..

but it did!

I was speechless and happy!

I signed the lease with the landlord, and realized that BD and his friend were already hauling things in!

I guess they could tell I loved it by the smile on my face!

By the end of the next day I was unpacked, and happily starting my life with BD!

A few weeks later Aidyn joined us and my house officially became a home!

I love it..

the front of the house! My porch, and my flowers! I haven't even killed them! The kitchen! I thought I had one that wasn't so blurry! But you get the jist! The bathroom! This actually has one of those permanent shower doors, but I hate those, and I love my shower curtain from Target, so I bought a shower rod to put up in front of the other one! :) I love it! Aidyns room! He has several vinyl wall letterings from etsy, and these are his fantastic bunk beds! Aren't they cute?! He LOVES his room! My room! BD's parents bought me that vanity and a head board.. but BD surprised me with a new bed, and bed set! Its an antique bed, and its gorgeous! (ill post pictures of that later!) Looking at the living room from the dinning room.. and my front door!

and from the door..

cute right?

I should take some updated pictures now that things have had time to be decorated, and my front porch HAS gotten painted..! I promise I will soon!

We are growing fonder of our home every day! It is only temporary.. but for now, it is perfect, and I feel incredibly blessed in it! ;)

:) Here goes nothing!

I just realized there is SOOO many things you guys have missed out on! Since I have an unexpected day off (due to Aidyn having a sick day). I decided to get caught up with your blogs, and catch you up on the life of Aidyn and me :) There is so very much to catch you up on. So I'll start at the beginning, and post my way through. If you are still here reading any of this. You are a saint! If not.. well then this is just for my own safe keeping.

So here goes nothing...

Hope you enjoy!

:)

I couldn't be happier...

then when I am with these boys.