Monday, August 30, 2010

When?

Do you know how hard it is to hate someone you love?

Or

to love someone you hate?

Either... sucks.

THIS:

is what I thought my forever would be like.

THIS:

is who I want to go to bed laying next to.

Even after everything that he has done.

There are moment when I am laughing...

moments when I am excited...

When I am with my family..

When I go on vacation..

When I hear a funny story..
or hear something interesting..

When I wish he was there to hear/see it/feel it/ or experience it with me.

I hate that he isn't.

They say that it'll get easier with time..

but it's been FOUR years!

When will I stop loving him?

When will I stop wanting him to be my forever.
when?

19 comments:

allie said...

hang in there brittany! only time will heal the wounds and who knows...maybe things will play out like you have always imagined. just wait and see, either way you are an awesome person so you've got to know that you have something amazing coming your way.

He & Me + 3 said...

Allie said it well. Hang in there.

Rachel said...

I'm so sorry!! I know it must be hard!! Hang in there, great things are coming your way. I just know it!!

:)
Rachel

Slyde said...

i was in the same boat, once upon a time.

it takes forever, but one day, when you arent thinkign about it, you'll realize that forever has passed.

Aimee said...

I dont think you ever will stop loving him but hopefully the pain goes away. :( I hope you feel better...

Kevin Michael said...

When you move to California. =)

sara said...

Not much to add. That sucks and I hope it starts to be easier sooner rather than later.

Busy Bee Suz said...

Of course you will always love him, but as you get older, this love will evolve. Just as you are too; you will get over him. Promise.

Look forwards...

Nicole said...

I always heard that however long you were with that person, it takes you that long to get over them. I'm not sure how long you guys were together and I'm not sure how true of a statement that is, but I had a RA tell me that in college.

Maritza said...

Oh lovely, I know it's tough but it will get easier. I'm telling you, move to CA and hang out with me for a bit and I'll find you a man good enough for you! You desrve so much better and I know you will find your Prince one day. In the mean time, hang in there. XOXO

rinniez said...

awwwwwwwwwwwww that really does suck brit!
but like everyone said all you can do is wait and see what life has in store, hopefully there is someone even more special that is out there waiting to make you a princess :)
xx

Tylaine said...

Oh Brittany I'm so sorry you're going through this. I can't even imagine how hard it is for you. You'll get through this. You're so strong.

Vic said...

awwww sweetie i know it's hard to hear people say it takes time...it's never easy but your a beautiful woman who deserves the world. love will find you:) muahh

~Jesse~ said...

I always have found that we hold on to what our Dreams were with people, but if we take a look at what reality has to offer, those dreams are just that..Dreams

Brittany said...

Britt this really made me sad :( I'm so sorry you have this huge heartache. Maybe in the future, when the time is right, you two will be back together. Hang in there and keep being that wonderful mom to Aidyn!!

jules said...

Hugs to you!

Iris Flavia said...

Hugs from here, too...
Must be extra-hard when you even have a little person you actaully share. Wishing you all the best, whatever that will be.

Mandy said...

I actually don't know the whole story, but I know how you feel. About having a hard time letting go of someone. Before I was married, there was someone that was so totally wrong for me- but through everything I still wanted him. I still loved him. It took YEARS to get over. But I did. And so will you! We love you girl!

Jenn@the loves of jenn said...

Hang in there sweetie, there is someone perfect for you out there! :)